I am going through some low points right now. And yet, on the other hand, I have seen God's hand at work to get me through some things that I would not have expected to even encounter. Dante and I are now completely over. He wants to limit conversation and not hang out and in his word "make new memories with me". It's tough to hear, but I did ask God to take him out of my life completely if he was not the right one for me. It's amazing how God will answer prayers even months after they have been asked. He knows why Dante was in my life and I will always remember the good times that we shared as well as the bad ones. So far I have learned that I really need to set boundaries for myself BEFORE getting into another relationship. I don't plan on getting into any relationships any time soon. I prayed that God would help take away some of those carnal thoughts that I am having so that I would be less likely to slip up. I need to ask God to help me in the areas of lying, drinking and holding things in. I know that for my next relationship those are things that really need to change. Otherwise I will have another recurrence
I just realized a few things, 1) I want to have my cake and eat it too. I would love to have a male in my life that is attracted to me, genuinely cares about me, can act out in an affectionate way but not get sexual with me. I don't think that is too much to ask... 2) Dante holds his friends in the same regard as most folks hold their family. Basically, his friends are his family, so their opinions matter n the way that most situations the opinion/acceptance from your family means. I have learned that I can truely rely on God to help get me out of situations that are contrary to what He wants me to do.