These last 3 months have been a real eye opener for me. It started back in June when Amanda left SR Family Law. I was starting to wonder what my purpose was for remaining at that job, I'd come to rely on her for my source of "daily word". I also knew that it was the grace and favor of God that was keeping me there but I wasn't really appreciating these blessings to the fullest. Amanda left, Nick was hired and by this time its July and they let London go. At this point, it is just me, Steve, Jer and the partners. I was under a lot of stress but excited that I had outlasted a lot of the folks that came and went. Even though I was now by myself in terms of Christian folks to rely on at work, and my automatic response should have been to rely even harder on God, I didn't change my patterns in terms of the amount of time that I gave God. As a result, I allowed fear to creep in when rumors concerning more layoffs were heard. At this point though I did begin making the confession that I would not be let go before it was time for me to go. But a few months went by and that faith in God's ability to keep me switched to a point where I gained a false sense of humility as I silently still relied on what I could do on my own.
Deep in side I knew that not giving God time, but yet expecting Him to to still cover me the same way was unfair. While saying that I was confident in God's ability to keep me at the job, I started making silly mistakes and getting careless with my work. The time came when I was finally let go. Since that time I have slowly learned to truly rely on God and His ability to provide for me. I have been unemployed since Sept. 30th. but I was givn a pretty generous "severance package" which covered tithes for the month of October, it also covered gas, food, rent for the month of October,my school loan, cell bill, and car insurance. Towards the middle of Oct. I was able to get money back from my auto insurance which covered November's tithes and offerings, misc. expenses, my school loan, cell, and car ins., and my credit card. It's now November 13th and I still have not recieved unemployment, but Greg called from my old job and offered me a temporary position, my suggestd rate of pay was $23 an hour for the time I will be there, but we'll see what God has in store for me. The time is flxible but I'm SO GRATEFUL that God has me covered and I have to do is just trust His plan and His Way!.
MY prayer now is that I would go in there on Monday and God would have his way. I'm sorry that Jimmy had to go as a result but I'm so thankful for this opportunity and God this time there is only You that I am relying on.